Sunday, September 6, 2009

THE LIE BEHIND THE BADGE

THE LIE BEHIND THE BADGE

I’m sure many would like for me to keep silent! To stop voicing the horrible truth behind the badge!!! I know I have ruffled many feathers but I refuse to keep silent.

Many officers all over the United States and I am sure through out the country continued to abuse there power!!!

From Racial Profiling, to Police Brutality, and Domestic Violence this abuse of power is a serious matter within all Police Departments.

Many have hidden behind the badge, many feel they are justifiable for the pain they have inflicted on so many innocent people. I happen to be one of them!

For years, others would hide the truth and continue to hide what really happened but the abuse of the past is shining through the dark hole of sorrow and despair.

You can not hide, you can not lie. The truth does come out.

God bless

Rosa Torres-Sadler

Friday, September 4, 2009

PEACE

PEACE

Many must wonder if I am bitter about the horrible abuse I endure for many years of my young adult life. I am not bitter; I am free of the abuse. Not only physical but the mental and the emotional pain that I suffered by my abuser.

For years I would hear I am sorry! It won’t happen again! If you report this, I will lose my job on the police department!

I sacrificed myself to protect another human being who did not protect me! My sister and I spoke on how difficult it has been to move forward because of the memories of the abuse. I have moved forward. Why am I speaking out and telling my story? There are so many women, children and men who are suffering because of Domestic Violence. I want to let them know, that they are special, wonderful, awesome, dynamic people!!!!

I prayed for years that, my abuser would say “I’m sorry”. I’m sorry for what I did! I’m sorry, for causing you to have eye surgery, “I’m sorry for the pain that I inflicted on you! I’m sorry!

Never heard it and I never will. I no longer wait for I’m sorry. I am at PEACE. My question to my abuser will they ever find PEACE? I pray that, they do because no matter what, in the now or in the later, the memory of the abuse you caused will live with you for always.

I DEDICATE THIS SHORT STORY TO MY FAMILY, MY CHILDREN, AND MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND TO ALL VICTIMS AND SURVIVORS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!!!!

PEACE

PEACE

Many must wonder if I am bitter about the horrible abuse I endure for many years of my young adult life. I am not bitter; I am free of the abuse. Not only physical but the mental and the emotional pain that I suffered by my abuser.

For years I would hear I am sorry! It won’t happen again! If you report this, I will lose my job on the police department!

I sacrificed myself to protect another human being who did not protect me! My sister and I spoke on how difficult it has been to move forward because of the memories of the abuse. I have moved forward. Why am I speaking out and telling my story? There are so many women, children and men who are suffering because of Domestic Violence. I want to let them know, that they are special, wonderful, awesome, dynamic people!!!!

I prayed for years that, my abuser would say “I’m sorry”. I’m sorry for what I did! I’m sorry, for causing you to have eye surgery, “I’m sorry for the pain that I inflicted on you! I’m sorry!

Never heard it and I never will. I no longer wait for I’m sorry. I am at PEACE. My question to my abuser will they ever find PEACE? I pray that, they do because no matter what, in the now or in the later, the memory of the abuse you caused will live with you for always.

I DEDICATE THIS SHORT STORY TO MY FAMILY, MY CHILDREN, AND MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS AND TO ALL VICTIMS AND SURVIVORS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!!!!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

FORGIVENESS OF THE PAST

FORGIVENESS OF THE PAST

Tonight I had a wonderful conversation with a loving, wonderful friend. We spoke of the lost years. We spoke how Domestic Violence has affected our lives.

Domestic Violence is an epidemic that is completely out of control in our Country and all over the world. My abusers were law enforcement officers. They abused there power. No one is above the law. My memory of the past has lived with me for many years. I was told numerous times that no one will ever listen to my cry for help and no one did until I stood up for myself.

Many years ago I was attending a Spanish banquet and a female officer who I have know for years came to warn me that, my abuser was going to do everything in his power to have me arrested and because of this warning I fled the city.

To all victims of Domestic Violence, stand up, keep your head high and do not be afraid anymore. You have rights; your voice will be heard!!!

Your not alone anymore and never believe that because of the position your abuser hold as a city, state, military officers that, they have the right to abuse you!!!

Many survivors are free of the abuse but……They are not free of the horrible memories of what happened to them. My children and I have moved forward because of the love and support we have given to one another.

Many family members continue to lie about the abuse of the past. My mother and father before there death would say to me, Hija, continue the fight because you deserve better and you did not deserve to be abused. This is why I continue to speak out against domestic violence!!!

God is on my side!!!!

God bless all victims and survivors of Domestic Violence